The Starfish won't Stay with The Star Till End

We born at the same month , when the cherry blossom blooming beautifully. 

Fate isn’t something we can predict, fate happened based on what God desired. Like a invisible thin thread it connects every human fate in this world.
Met you was one of the destiny that has been arranged neatly by the almighty.
Before I knew who you’re, I'm just a naughty little girl who always wanted to be seen by  people around me. I tried to follow what they’re doing, without thinking about the state of my parents, all i can do was just demand everything on them, without think how’s their feelings.

But since i knew you, everything has changed slowly...
I started to still at home, looking for information about you through the website, trying to looking for your condition through the your social account.  
From you ...
I learned everything,
From you I learned that in this world nothing’s instant, nothing can we get without an effort
From you I learned how to face people who hate us,
From you I learned how to draw a smile even though it hurt inside,
From you I learned that no one’s perfect,
From you I learned to appreciate their loved who lived around me,
From you I learned to sing even though it sounds bad,
From you I learned to dance even though it’s weird,
From you I learned for always try to reach all the dreams that I had.

I started create some social accounts, i did it only to get one step closer to you.

I'm trying to learn a foreign language, at least i know about english, and now i’m trying to learn korean language. And i just want you to know that now i’m studying english literature in one of the best university in my country. J

You made me met another people from another country, even you never knew that for us you’re such a invisible thin thread who connects many people in the world. J

You’ve taught me,
You taught me how to make sacrifices for the things that i want,
You taught me to appreciate everything that I have,
You taught me to be more patient when things don’t go as i hope,
You taught me how to love someone sincerely,
You taught me to being more mature ,
Many things you’ve taught to me.
Thank you ....

"The most difficult part of a fangirl is when you love your idol as a man and not as an idol"

That what you’ve said

 And..

I think

It’s happened to me.

I’m sorry..

Actually at the first i just saw you as someone who is admirable, but ....
Without knowing and realizing it, you have taught me many things, you’ve changed my bad habits without you knew it... sorry i think "I’m fall in love" with you.

Like in love people
I want to be with you,
I want to be part of  your activities,
I want to stay by your side when you face the hardest part of your life,
I want to ask every little things that ordinary girl asked to her boy,
I want to be your lover.

But .......

Now...

I realize it all won’t be able to happen,
I realize i’m not the only one who feel it,
I realize you're not just mine, you’re everyone’s.
I realize may you’ve already had other woman who’s much better than me.
This thing is wrong, it isn’t love.. it’s just an obsession

I know it clearly,

For  that reason  I'm trying to forget you slowly,
But it’s hard, very hard ...
Every time I try to forget you by trying to look into the real life.

By loving another people near me,

But...
I always fall..

Twice I tried to look at other people who feel real and near for me, but they ignored me.
And it is more painful, than ignored by you.
What should I do?
Can you tell me?Don’t you  know i’m tired?

Always expect something that i never get,
everythings seems exhausting,

When the almighty be kind guide you found this writing,  
And you read it,

You must realized that thing..

"You are a special person", so "Take care of yourself"“be happy,there’re many people loved you, and will always loving you”“you’re a star,biggest star”
“please stay on the sky forever, so that i can see you from here.” 

Thank you for everything,
Sorry that till that time i still hoping you,
and i need you here,

as my man, not an idol..

you and me are totally different.

You’re sun. I’m sunflower.

You’re star. I’m starfish.

You’re kneeling . I’m bowing.

Like a bumblebee and firefly, we won’t be meet till end. 

Our life,

Our fate, 

Our place,

Our language,

Our skin,

Our hair,

Our age,

Those all are totally different.

I always pray to the god

“dear Allah, please be kind tell his God to take us life at your heaven together. Please ,don’t separate us in to different place in the next life.” 

i think, i should say sorry to you many times, 

I'm Sorry oppa, sorry for loving you, sorry for hoping you, sorry for too much wanting you, and sorry for always say sorry.

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